Thursday, December 4, 2008
**Disclaimer**- I have debated about posting this post- I dont do it to be "seen of men" so to speak, nor for anyone to think I am bragging or trying to be all "look at us, arent we great" cuz thats not what we think at all- I write this because this is my journal and I hope my kids read this someday and know that what I try to teach them, I try to do by example. I want them to know that I know the Lord has had a hand in not only our lives but in the lives of people we dont really even know. And with that I share with you this years answer to a year long prayer-
Last year at Christmas Daniel gave me a book. He thought I would like it cuz its a Christmas story and he knows that I love Christmas. I had seen the little write up in the desert book ad, and wondered what the fetch a "Christmas jar" was, but didnt really intend to find out. SO when he gave me the book, I was like- "oh gee,... thanks hun...its what i always wanted(laying on the sarcasm pretty thick))" It was sweet of him to get me anything as we kind of have this thing where we dont really spend money on each others gifts, but Daniel never holds to that. Anyway I wasnt all that enthused about the book, but a few weeks after Christmas, Ky was at school, Toast was at preschool, James was napping and I had my house clean and laundry done, so I had some time to kill. I went looking for something to read, and saw the book and figured I might as well give it a try. So I read the book, liked it and thought it was a cute idea. So we started our own little jar and have been adding to it throughout the year. Well as it is the Holiday season, I have been praying for the past several months to know who we should give this to. I have been getting a little frustrated cuz I havent been receiving any inspiration and the thing is- I want to be inspired. Here's why- I think anytime anyone is in a hard situation, it is EXTREMELY hard to ask for help. I dont know if its pride or just embarrassment, but I think we like to put on a happy face for friends/family/neighbors and think we can some how manage to do it ourselves. Well thats how I feel anyway. But having had some "hard times" I have learned that my Father in Heaven knows of my needs, and has used family/neighbors/friends to offer love, kindness and support many a time over. How utterly grateful I am for those who have been in tune with the quiet whisperings of the spirit and without really knowing what personal fires we were going through, were there and in one way or another to answer a personal prayer. So I have really wanted to be in tune to be able to really help someone in need. I have been on the receiving end so many times, and I really want to be the one giving for once. Again- I have been praying- and praying and praying and trying to be in tune with this. I know there are so many people out there who are suffering, and I also know that sometimes the only one who knows is our Heavenly Father. Daniel and I have thrown around some names, but I wanted this to be something that I really felt. So Daniel came home one night this week, and started telling me about his day. He told me about this woman he talked to on a unexpected call. She just had her third baby, her husband is in another state trying to get into some kind of training for the field of work he is wanting to go into, and she is barely getting by. As he starts telling me about his conversation, I felt a physical heat rush through me and I got a little emotional cuz right then in that single moment I KNEW who this jar needs to go to. I felt so strongly the answer to my prayer. And this makes me completely joyful. My heart breaks for this little family that I dont know, but I am happy knowing that their needs are aware of by our Heavenly Father. And I am so happy to know my prayers are heard.