As I use my blog for journaling purposes I just wanted to write about the dear prophet President Hinckley. He passed away on Sunday night and when my mom called to let us know, I felt a sadness but a joy at the same time. I felt joy because I immediately thought of how precious a reunion he was having with his sweet wife. Theirs is a love so incredible, pure and inspiring. I am so happy they are united once again. I am sad because I will miss him deeply. I will miss his sense of humor, his incredible strength and example, and his smile and wave of his cane at the end of conference. I remember going to conference several years ago. As soon as he walked into the conference center the spirit was so strong- a feeling I will never forget. I truely love him and will miss him, but thank our Father in Heaven for the blessing of having grown up with him as the prophet.
Friday, January 25, 2008
For Christmas the kids got bikes, and it has been up to Daniel to teach them how to ride them as my pregnant body isnt quite up to chasing them along- anyway its interesting to me how Tyler is much more interested in it than Kylie. The first time Daniel helped Tyler he did really good and tried it by himself and even after he fell he got back on. Kylie got on for less than a minute and wasnt all that interested to try again. Santa probably should have brought her an art set and more books as those seem to be her passions. Hopefully she will try it again, but for now the only bike rider is my Toast.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
A little over two weeks ago I started having constant Braxton Hicks contractions, not just normal ones- ones that dont go away. I had the same thing while pregnant with James and it was due to an infection. So I called my dr's office and after taking all day to call back, told me to come in the next morning to leave a specimen. The next morning i go at the time they told me, and had to wait an hour and a half just to pee in a stupid cup- Totally ridiculous-. The next week I have an appointment with the dr, and after his less than two minute check-up he asks if I have any questions- so I tell him what has been going on, and ask if they have my results-Its a 48 hour test-- this was 4 days later-- he says its not back but will have the nurse call me the next day. the next three days I still dont hear from them, all the while am living with this never ending pain and discomfort that is getting worse and worse. Thursday night I couldnt move i was in terrible pain. on Sunday I get up with the kids and start getting them their breakfast and BAM- I am having labor contractions-- not sissy little contractions- MAJOR contractions- one right on top of the next. I couldnt stand up, and was having a hard time breathing. My back was on fire and I felt pressure only known to those who have been in labor- 30 minutes of this and I call my mom. She tells me that I need to get the the hospital ASAP- So I get off the phone and have Daniel give me a blessing and while we are trying to figure out who we can ask to watch the kids, the contractions slow way down. I call my mom again, she still thinks I need to go to the hospital but also tells me to call my drs office. So I leave a message and tell them whats been going on- and after a little while, they call back and the dr says just rest and drink lots of water. OK- whatever. So I take it easy but am still just really uncomfortable and get feeling really sick and weak and dizzy, but make it through the day. Monday I call the dr office first thing, and when they call me back the nurse tells me the dr hasnt looked over the results yet- when he finally looks over them his nurse calls me back and tells me "it looks like it is an infection, so we need to get you on antibiotics right away"- RIGHT AWAY? Right away would have been 48 hours after the stupid test- so for two weeks this infection has been spreading, and making life miserable- But here's the thing- If an infection can cause preterm labor and other serious problems, and the results dont take that long to get back so the doctors can know whats going on, why did it take them so long to get the results and get me taken care of? We are paying them for their "service" so to speak of providing health care while I am pregnant- but I think they put me and my baby at huge risk by letting it go so long.
But through all of this I am grateful for a few things. I think the reason my contractions stopped and I didnt end up in preterm labor was-one the blessing and the power of the priesthood. And two- my mothers faith and prayers- It seems to me that I had a little miracle through my little experience, and the blessing testifies to me that my Father in Heaven is always there, and is always aware, and he cares for me and this baby. Also, my mother has exceeding great faith. I was extremely scared and worried sick, but my wise mother has a way of calming my fears and her example is incredible. She immediately turns to the Lord and through her faith, miracles happen. I am grateful for the priesthood, and am grateful Daniel is worthy to hold such a powerful gift, and I am ever so grateful to my mom and her never failing faith.
Monday, January 21, 2008
So I have been trying to have more meaningful FHEs this year-and today i put a lot of effort into planning a lesson and activity that was meaningful, on their level, and entertaining. Kylie had treats and I even correlated that into my plan. So after dinner we jump into it. Then Tyler starts disrupting. so I give him his time-out warning. That works for a minute, then he starts disrupting again. I dont want to put the kid in time out, cuz I want him to participate. I know if he will just pay attention he will really like this lesson. So i choose to ignore his behavior, but am getting irritated. We start the game and he gets involved for a few minutes, then he is disrupting again. After the game I try to wrap everything up and tie it all together and he disrupts again. THEN IT CLICKS. The reason he has been disrupting is cuz he is trying to get his daddys attention. The kid can barely get through the day waiting for his dad to come home so they can wrestle- and I hadnt given him his "daddy time." So next week I am gonna give Toast 15 minutes of pure Daddy body slamming wrestling- and then start FHE and hopefully it will go a little more smoothly- we shall see~
Toast and Kylie have really been into the movie the little rascals lately. They go around quoting lines to each other, and have given each other the nick names of buckwheat and uh-hu. Kylie loves to ask Tyler "are you thinkin what I'm thinkin?" and Ty laughs and replies "yeah Butch. what are we thinkin?" Then they both laugh hysterically and do it over and over. They also love tapping their chins with a ponderous look upon their little faces and say "pretty good pleading." Then they ask me, "hey mom- what does pleading mean?" And whenever I change James diaper Kylie comes over and says- "hey uh-hu, does it stink in there?" To which Ty runs over and yells "uh-hu!" and of course they end up laughing hysterically. Crazy kids. yesterday they were singing "you are so beautiful to me," so I had to record it cuz I love it. However Kylie got camera shy, so Ty sings solo- you might want to pause the music launcher before watching this so you can hear him.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Found this and thought it might be fun--
1. Are you ready for 100 questions?
Bring it on
2. Do you watch college football?
3. Who will fill this survey out after you?
4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
5. Do you love anyone?
6. Are you happy?
7. Where was the last place you went shopping?
8. How do you feel about your hair?
I need a good trim
9. Where do you work?
10. Last thing you ate/drank?
11. Do you wish you were someplace else right now?
Hawaii would be nice
12. Do you have any pet peeves?
I cant stand when there is road work and 2 lanes are merging into one, and people think they have more right to zoom in front of everyone and push their way in when everyone else has to wait-that really irks me!
13. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
My wedding ring
14. AIM or Yahoo?
Yahoo i guess
15. Do you like math?
16. How many hours on average do you work a week:
18. Favorite baseball team?
Dont watch baseball
19. Favorte NBA team?
used to like Utah Jazz when Karl Malone and John Stockton were on the team
20. Do you watch the Olympics?
21. Last restaurant you went to?
Pei Wei- on our drive home from Christmas vacation
22. Who was the last person to call you?
23. What’s your sign?
24. Do you have a favorite number?
25. Last time you did volunteer work or made any donations?
2 weeks ago on Sunday
26. What do you spend the majority of your money on?
27. Where does your family live?
We live in Yuma, my siblings and parents are in UTAH
28. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
29. Ever been called a witch?
30. Got any guilty pleasures?
I really like sleeping in but with 3 kids it never happens
31. Do you drink beer?
32. Whats your favorite color?
Light pink, green, blue, and white
33. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
34. Ever bought anything online?
yes- mostly stuff on ebay
35. Myspace or Facebook?
36. Do you have T-Mobile?
38. Do you sometimes wish you were someone else?
sure for a minute or two but then realize i wouldnt trade my husband or kids for anything!
41. Last time you saw your parents?
42. Do you have any talents?
I make the best chocolate chip cookies EVER!
43. Ever been in a wedding?
44. Do you have any children?
45. Last movie you watched?
Baby Einstein with James
46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
I miss my parents
47. Did you take a nap today?
Oh gee- I wish!!!!
49. Ever been on a cruise?
no but would absolutely love to take one with Daniel
50. Did you notice number 40 was missing?
52. Do you have any wealthy friends?
53. Ever met anyone famous before?
Does Mickey Mouse count?
54. Favorite actor?
55. Favorite actress?
56. Are you multi-tasking right now?
57. Could you handle being in the military?
58. Are you hungry or thirsty?
59. Favorite fast food restaurant?
61. What is your average cell phone bill?
62. Do you own a camera phone?
63. Ever had to take a sobriety test?
64. Do you believe in Karma?
I believe that you get what you give
65. Can you speak any other languages?
I can count to ten in 4 other languages- Brilliant I know!
66. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
Before I got too pregnant- I think I stopped in October
67. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
68. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?
69. Last place you were?
I have been home except for taking Kylie to school this morning
70. What is your college mascot?
71. Ever been to Las Vegas?
76. Have you ever been gambling?
I put a quarter or two in a slot machine several years ago
77. How old are your parents?
58 and 59
78. When is the last time you updated your blog?
79. Do you have your wisdom teeth?
nope-gottem pulled out and was black and blue for two weeks-stinking dentist
80. Favorite place to be?
Most anywhere with Daniel-
81. Have you been to New York City?
No but would like to visit there someday
82 Favorite sit down restaurant?
Cheesecake factory, Claim jumper, Baja Fresh-(we sit down when we eat there), Pei Wei, olive garden, sweet tomatoes, THE ROOF,
83. Ever been to Disney Land?
a few times- we took the kids for their first time the week after Thanksgiving
84. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
I like Tigger
85. Last thing you cooked?
Daniel and I made lettuce wraps together last night
86. How is the weather today?
its a bit chilly for Yuma-yesterday was bitter cold and the wind was insane!
87. Do you email?
From time to time
88. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
A few Christmas letters that arrived after Christmas as they were sent to our old address in Mesa
89. Last missed call?
Yesterday Brie called to invite Toast over for a play date-
91. Last voicemail you received?
and she left a voicemail with that message-
92. Do you drunk dial/text?
?dont know what that means-I dont drink so I dont get drunk so I guess that means no?
93. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
answered it while taking a shower
94. What is the best city in the state that you live in?
?Dunno- i havent been to them all to make that kind of assesment.
96. Did you just die?
I hope not-
97. Are you bored right now?
No- I just put James down and thought I would update my blog, and found this survey- after I finish I get to clean up the house and fold some laundry- YIPEE!
98. Last concert you went to?
Celines in Vegas 3 years ago
99. What do you think about before you go to bed?
100. What are your plans for tomorrow?
We have some errands, ty has a b-day party, and then we will take the kids to the park
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Last year I gave James his first haircut and messed it up, so Daniel shaved his head. He continued to do so for a while, but in September we started letting it grow out. Well it started looking pretty funny. He is a little fluffy fuzz ball and no matter what I do his hair has a mind of its own and goes all over. So this past weekend Daniel took him in to clean it up, as I was afraid if I tried Daniel would start shaving it again- well it still sticks up all over the place, but it is a little less shaggy- My cute little fuzz ball!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Yesterday we took the kids to the park. They had a blast! The thing i loved the most was the way they interacted together. I love to see the love my kids have for each other. They are each others best friends and they really look out for one another. I hope that continues forever. I love my siblings and have so many wonderful memories of us growing up together, and also many memories of us fighting as we went through the teenage years. But now that we are older, they are some of the people I love the most in this world. I am just so thankful that I come from such a wonderful family, and am so thankful for the wonderful family Daniel and I are raising. No matter what struggles we have, there is a love in our home that just makes everything seem a little brighter.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
So I am 30 weeks pregnant with my 4th baby and I really dont enjoy being pregnant. I love my babies and love the first year especially, but I really dislike the discomforts I live with for 40 weeks before that. My back gets so tweaked, i get awful heartburn, my babies tend to situate themselves right on my sciatic nerve where i cant walk, i get awful insomnia but yet am just exhausted beyond description, cant breathe, get horrid headaches, and just dont like being kicked in the ribs all day long- but there is one thing that I totally love- i love it when my baby gets the hiccups- it just makes me realize how real this baby is and with that i tend to feel closer with my baby. Since this is my fourth and my other kids are still really young, i am feeling slightly overwhelmed with the thought of adding one more, but yet I know I already love this baby. I know he will bring a new spirit into our home and add to the love we feel as a family. I just wish we could figure out his name!
Monday, January 7, 2008
With the new year starting, Daniel and I were talking about our goals and dreams and desires. Its hard for me to say what I want to accomplish this year cuz i am in the midst of raising my kids. I just want to provide a loving, nurturing, safe home for my children, but at the end of the year I am still going to be trying to do the same thing. So its a never ending cycle, which is fine, but it doesnt give me a specific goal in which I can check off at the end of the year---So I decided to take it a step further- what do I want to do with my life- and what continual steps can i work on this year to help move me towards those desires. I guess my focus is on preparing for the future--and here's what I have come up with:
1- I want to be a great mother. I want my kids to develop their own testimony of Jesus Christ and his Gospel, and want them to know that they are children of a loving Heavenly Father. I know that no matter what happens in life, as long as they know that Jesus Christ in their Savior, and they are children of God, they can find true and lasting peace and happiness. Thats what I want, so i will continue to work on my own testimony, and try to share it with them more often. I need to look for opportunities to serve others and have my children help in that. And then just continue to have daily family prayers & scripture study. I think I should also focus on having more meaningful FHE lessons. This one is tricky cuz Ty has the attention span of a 4 year old boy and James of course sits still for only a minute- Well its something I will work on and figure out.
2- I want to use the talents I have been given to help others come unto Jesus Christ. I have asked myself a million times what talents do I have, and the only one that I can really think of is music. When I was in high school and shortly there after I had the opportunity from time to time to share my testimony through singing. I havent sung much since I have had children and I miss it. There is something so powerful about music, and when used in concert with the Holy Ghost, it has power to pierce the soul. I feel like I have been given that talent so that I can share my testimony in that way, so that I can be an instrument in helping others feel the spirit and come unto the Savior. So I need to start strengthening my voice, and continue to strengthen my own testimony so that when the right opportunity comes along I will be prepared physically and most importantly spiritually. In addition to that, I do want to record a Christmas album- just because I love Christmas more that anything and my favorite music is Christmas music, so I want to record some of my favorite songs, and then share it with my friends and family. I figure this I wont do for a little while, but by working on my voice, I can get to where I need to be so that in the future I can do this.
3- I want to serve a mission with Daniel. Daniel is my favorite person in the world. I admire so many things about him , but one of the most wonderful things about him is his desire to serve. I am excited for the future time when we will be able to go off into the world and serve together to share the gospel. So we need to be more committed to studying our scriptures together and praying as a couple. And working on our communication would be helpful too.
4- I want to help others financially. Daniel is still trying to provide for us as a family, and as in the case for many young families, its difficult. We have so many blessings, but there isnt much after the bills and living expenses each month. But I do believe that this is temporary. Daniel is smart and hard working and I think that it wont be too long before we are in a much better place that where we are now. Another thing I love so dearly about Daniel is that he doesnt desire "stuff"-He would much rather spend his money to feed someone who is hungry than on the latest gizmo for himself. I love that about him and look forward to the day when we have abundance and can go around giving to those in need--and to do so anonymously- thats where the true joy comes in i think. So right now we can just try to budget wisely and focus on the needs of our children rather than wants, and also to maybe start a jar of loose change to cash in at Christmas to give to a family in need--this will be a good one to get the kids involved with too, as they seem to find change everywhere.
So theres a start. If I really desire these things I need to really commit to doing what I can each day to move me closer to these desires. That means I cant make excuses like I didnt have time-or whatever- I will have to make time and prioritize- otherwise I wont get to where I want to be. So I am committing myself to these little steps and - "out of small things proceedeth that which is great!"
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Three years after Tyler was born, James Thomas Jackson joined the family. Before he was born, i had some really sacred experiences that just bore witness to me how special James is. The night I was in labor, Daniel had a pretty cool dream that again bore witness that this baby has a specific purpose and that we have a sacred responsibility as his parents. He is now 15 months which blows my mind cuz time has just flown by. I have enjoyed every minute of his life. Kylie and Tyler just adore him and he just loves them back. I love how excited James gets to see Kylie when we pick her up from school. His whole face just lights up and he practically jumps out of my arms to see her. i love how Toast takes it upon himself to show James how things work- and how he shares his toys with James and just loves his baby brother. James loves trucks and watching him push them around cracks me up cuz he growls as he zooms around. James loves to dance- anytime he hears a tune he just starts dancing to the beat. He is very active and loves to explore and discover things, and when he figures something out he claps for himself. His laugh is contagious and really just brightens the day. He does this thing where he clenches his fists and gets this look on his face and shakes and every time he does it we just cant stop laughing which makes him do it more. In the last month or so he has started this little game of closing his eyes on people who talk to him. Its so dang funny. I just love everything about James. He is precious!
Friday, January 4, 2008
One year after Kylie was born, Tyler Scott Jackson joined our family. He just added to the love- He was a good natured baby, and his favorite person in the world was his daddy. Tyler turned 4 last year and started preschool. He found his future wife at preschool- her name is Allison and she is adorable. Tyler is the biggest Diego fan out there-if you were to ask him what his name is he responds, "Diego!" He is a very active boy and loves to wrestle and body slam his daddy. He is very affectionate and gives hugs all day long. He has the most mischievous smile that just cracks me up cuz its like he is always planning something. He cant say his "r's" very well, but I think its so freaking cute~! Ty loves to make up songs and just sings and sings all the time. When he was born his sister called him "Toe-Toe" and from there we nick-named him Toast- Ty loves to create and build and then loves to destroy his creations. He loves being with his Daddy, loves being read to, loves to tell jokes, and loves to snuggle with his blanket. Toast is a good helper and has a great imagination that keeps things very interesting. Tyler is just a delight!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
One year and a month after we were married, we were blessed with a perfect beautiful baby girl. We named her Kylie Noelle Jackson. She weighed 5 lbs 14 oz. Kylie just brought just a loving spirit into our home. I loved seeing Daniel in the role of a daddy. Kylie is now 5 and started kindergarten this past year. She is extremely bright and learns so quickly. When she was two she memorized the basic phonics and is now reading. She is such a great sister to her brothers and is such a help to me. She loves the Disney princesses! She is shy, but once she warms up to someone she talks their ears off. She is a girly girl who loves to play dress up and have her toenails and fingernails painted. She loves to color and will spend hours doing just that. She loves puzzles, and stuffed animals and loves to help me bake cookies. She is a picky little eater, but eats her veggies! Her favorite foods are chocolate chip waffles, pasta, fries, or yogurt smoothies. She loves going on trips, doesnt like going to bed, and loves being in her jammies cuz they are "cozy". We love our Kylie!!!
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
I have been wanting to do this for a while and as a new years goal I have finally started-I just have to keep it up!
So i thought I would start with how Daniel and I met. I was up at Ricks-now BYU-Idaho and my cousin called me out of the blue and said "i know who your one and only is." I had been set-up on too many blind dates and wasnt all that interested- but I decided to go along- Michael(my cousin) told me about this guy- Daniel- whom he had know in Kindergarten and they had remained friends over the years and were both back from their missions. He told me he was just a "good guy". As I was in Idaho and he was in Arizona the opportunity to meet had yet to present itself, so we started emailing. A few months later Michael and Daniel planned a trip to Utah and I went down that same weekend to visit my family- so we met- interestingly enough the "sparks" werent flying- so I went up to finish off the semester and he went back to the desertwasteland and we didnt really email after that. During this time an uncle of mine needed a kidney transplant and my oldest brother had selflessly volunteered to be the doner- My brother and his young family lived in Yuma at the time and the operation was to be done in Phoenix- so they asked if I would come down and watch their boys-I just finished the semester and so i headed down there. Michael decided to try to get us-(daniel and I) together while I was down for the month- so two weeks after the operation we (Daniel, Michael, and I) went to San Diego for the weekend. We went to Magic mountain and Michael kept disappearing while we waited in the long lines, so Daniel and I had lots of time to converse. On the drive back to Yuma we swapped scriptures and as I was looking through his I was quite intimidated with all the notes he had taken and how deeply he had studied-- they dropped me off at my brothers and i sent him an email that night thanking him for a great weekend- he emailed back and left me his number- I am so old fashioned and would never be the one to call a boy- but my brother explained a few things to me and alas I called- we talked all night on the phone and the next night and so it went. The next weekend he came down again-(he lived in Mesa) and we went out on our first date- we ended up hanging out all night long and after a good game of basketball and some arm wrestling Daniel made his move and kissed me- HELLO SPARKS! To this day he says I kissed him- but again- I am so old fashioned and would never be the one to make the first move- He kissed me and I kissed him back! we just had a great time together and talked and played and then the sun came up--so the next morning when he dropped me off at my brothers my brother was giving me a hard time about being out all night long with a stranger- but I invited Daniel over for dinner that night so that he would no longer be considered a stranger to my brother--a few hours before dinner I took Daniel to meet my grandma and as we left she called out-"he has my stamp of approval"- that night at dinner Reed and Allyson were impressed with Daniel and after we cleaned up and played some games, they sent their boys to bed, and we went on a walk and again ended up hanging out all night-- He left the next morning and we continued emailing and calling each other every day and that weekend I flew back home to Utah- he came the next weekend as his younger brother was leaving the MTC- so I met his parents that weekend as well- I invited him to spend the week with my favorite aunt and uncle and their adorable family at Lake Powell a few weeks later and they fell in love with him. My aunt and uncle knew me pretty well as I had spent quite a bit of time at their home babysitting and I worked at my uncles office, so they had met a few of the guys I had gone out with over the years- and they could tell that I was uncomfortable and not myself with most of the other guys i had gone out with. So after our week in Powell Jim told my mother that in addition to all these great things they noticed about Daniel, the thing they noticed the most was that I was myself around him and that made all the difference. After that week, we spent the weekend in Mesa and I met his grandma and some of his relatives and at that point we were both attached to each other- But the future was uncertain as I was planning on heading back to Idaho at the end of the summer and he was working and going to school in Mesa. Long distance wasnt what either of us wanted. we talked and prayed and talked and prayed and thought about our future. And then we decided to get married~! He officially proposed two weeks after that. We met in Vegas to meet his sister and after a dinner show at Ceasers palace we went on a gondola ride at the Venetian and as the guy serenaded us Daniel popped out the ring, and asked me to marry him!So a month later off to the Timpanogos Temple we went!
even though our relationship was so quick, I knew Daniel was the one man I wanted to spend my life with. He is truly amazing! I loved how he treated my grandma and I loved the relationship he had with his grandma. I loved how thoughtful he always was and how he could sense a need and without a second thought offered help. I loved how he was so amazing with kids. I loved that he was a romantic. I loved his sense of humor. I loved that we could talk and talk and never run out of things to talk about. I loved that he was so genuine with his emotions, feelings and thoughts and that he trusted me with those. I loved how he was a hard worker, and was always the first to jump in and help out. I loved his perspective about everything. I loved how he kissed me. I loved that he always opened the door for me. I loved how he would always reach out for my hand while driving and walking. I loved his testimony and his desire to do good and be good. I loved how everyone was comfortable around him. I loved how he was so accepting and loving of everyone and really didnt judge people. I loved how he wasnt afraid to tell me how he felt about me. I loved the way he looked at me. I loved the way he listened. I loved the way he smiled. I loved his sincerity.
I truly love this man and as we have been married for 6 &1/2 years- he hasnt lost one of those qualities about him that I fell in love with. He is the most amazing father. He is so selfless not just with me and the kids, but with everyone. He is an amazing friend. He is so considerate and kind. He has more patience than anyone I know. He is forgiving. He is so grateful and appreciative. He is so smart and creative. He is so much fun and just has the most refreshing sense of humor. And he is still extremely romantic. He still opens the door for me and still reaches out for my hand. He still trusts me with his emotions and thoughts and believes in me and sees me as I can become. I love that he still is a hard worker and not just in relation to his responsibilities to provide for us, but also how he works hard to help others. I love that he still notices the needs of those around him and jumps in to offer help. I love his honesty and integrity. I love that he is so thoughtful. I love that he is still so loving and still doesnt judge others. I love the gift of charity he has been given and the sincerity of his heart. i love his desire to serve and give. I love that he is full of goodness. I love his testimony of the gospel. I still love his boyish smile. I love the way he looks at me and the way he makes me feel. I love how he loves me and finds a way everyday to tell me.
Daniel is the love of my life and I cant even explain how deeply truly grateful I am to have him in my life-and so with that you have the start of our story!